..i want to cry..

i want to cry but i can't
nothing in my world is clear
i'm so tired of pretending
images grow wavy through my tears.

i beat my fist into the wall
slowly i give up the fight
i want to scream through the sobs
and i'm needing your grace tonight.

crying to GOD i want to know
i'm giving you my load
i pass to you my scars
when your blood has overflowed.